“Why can’t you tell it to me straight?”
“Why can’t you take a hint?”
He’d prefer I make a list of everything
I want him to know, instinctively
He lives his best life through half the night;
I can barely outlast the long stretches of day.
They say opposites attract but we are mostly alike
Except when we are not... and then it hurts,
I won’t pretend.
We are learning as we go, slowly.
You’d think nine years tallied off the calendar
We would have made a communication formula.
But even one day can create a gap
When looking after young takes all waking hours.
Some days I’m just holding on for better ones,
Clinging to the past that tells us we have a future.
I flinch sometimes in reaction to tender touches,
Until I recall that his is give and not take.
I’m accustomed to being emotionally drained
And forget: united, we are so, so good together.
I love that we can still be ourselves,
While also being an “us.”
I love how we sustain each other’s hope-
Choose in the hardest times to meet instead of part.
I cherish each laugh we share together.
It’s not a secret, but do you know?
I fell for his laugh before I fell for his heart.