I have been subscribed to her blog for a while, and today I decided to take the plunge and try out Lisa Jo Baker's Five Minute Friday prompt. Because if I can get over my nerves, I think it will be... fun! :)
Today's selection was: Story
What is mine?
I know this much: it is wrapped up in my name.
A name I didn't choose. My parents chose it for me.
As a child, I craved to be significant. I wanted to know the meaning of my name. So I looked it up:
Jamie. Derived from Jacob. Which means deceiver.
To me, it simply meant devastation.
Must I live into that story? Was it my story destiny? I carried the despair for years.
"At least," I thought, hopefully, "no one would have high expectations for me to fail them in."
But. I watched myself like a hawk!
I became determined to defy the meaning. To be honest with myself and my family about everything. (Often, this looked like wearing my heart on my sleeve. Constantly.)
Life was emotional. Raw. But the discipline was necessary in my mind. I am stubborn.
I became a type of Jacob after all.
I am a dreamer of dreams.
I wrestle with God.
I will not let go without the blessing.
I have walked with a literal limp.
Yet, I am not like the prototype; I have a new story. My own story.
I am beloved. Jamie. Adopted heir to Kingdom-of-God goodness. Child of "Abba, Father."